RANDOM COLOUR EXPLOSION!
watch your step if you dare risk getting closer to me.Just to clarify...
Friday, 16 December 2011
1:28 amCapture The Moment
Im just so like stressed about finding the right course and keeping on
top of thing. When i organise stuff it makes me feel good like i have a
purpose to all the shit I'm doing. The only reason i put up with the
fucking school is so that when i leave i can put up my middle finger to
them and go and do what i wanna do. Ill be so glad to leave those narrow
minded motherfuckers behind. I'm destined for better things, i may not
be the smartest but I'm talented at most things i set my mind to. But i
just need a purpose. When someone asks me why Japanese i just say its
what i wanna do, and then they look at me funny. Fuck you i don't need a
status symbol, i don't wanna be a doctor or a lawyer that shit doesn't
interest me. I wanna get away from all of it but at the same time I don't
want to go too far away. I'll miss the familiarity and I don't deal well
with change, I don't like seeing people go and it takes me a while to
adjust. I reckon that if i become famous it'll be so much easier to go
keep track of people because they'll come looking for me than the other
way around. I just hate losing people and i think i have a fear of
change. Growing up and growing older is not the one. I just feel like I'm
wasting time so i panic and plan, when i panic i plan things so it
seems like I'm going somewhere. And now the plannings serious so i wanna
achieve it. Its a reality now but i don't like it i liked planning
things and keeping one step ahead but now its all caught up with me. I
just wanna run and have a crazy Murakami adventure, with no beginning
middle or end. It just keeps going. But theres always the fear of change
that holds me back.
Written in a rush but it was written how I felt at the time. Sorta captured in that brief moment where I thought I knew what I was feeling.
Ms.Loco xoxo
Written in a rush but it was written how I felt at the time. Sorta captured in that brief moment where I thought I knew what I was feeling.
Ms.Loco xoxo
1:05 am
Direction
I've been thinking that maybe I ought to have a purpose for this blog and not just general ramblings about life...although that is fun :) I have a thinky and get back to you ja? Any ideas post in the comment blox thingy.
Ms.Loco xoxo
Ms.Loco xoxo
Thursday, 27 October 2011
8:55 pmI Refuse To Grow Up
So here I am entering my 17th year of life (almost) and I realise that maybe I'm not as mature as I consider myself to be.
1. Watching Disney movies
2. Watching cartoons
3. Playing girly games online
4. Visiting the Disney store every time I go to Oxford Street
5. Rolling around on the floor
6. Making awkward noises eg. honking for no particular reason
7. Demanding attention from my parents 24/7
Trust me the list can go on. And on. And on.
But what does it matter anyway? Surely we can continue life as naive and innocent as a six year old? No, because we are told this is wrong and that you have to grow up and move on and that these things are childish and you can't hold onto the past. No. It's not allowed. You have to read newspapers and know current affairs and watch documentaries and study all the time and go out and have sex and go to wild parties where everyones high and get drunk you know what FUCK THAT. Imma roll around on the floor if I want. Sure I'll study and go to school but I'm not giving up having a childhood. In my opinion kids grow up too fast nowadays. I may sound like a whingy old twat but it's true! Going out getting drunk having sex dressing like a slag all that the age of 14 is not appropriate. It could be argued however that this is immature behaviour and that they haven't grown up at all they're just trying to act like their older counterparts. Whatever it is something is seeerrriiooouussslllyyyy fucked.
Why does it always seem that people take one of two routes. The Party Animal or Uber Conservative. The Party Animal will do everything in their power to be "that cool person" whereas the Uber Conservative will being debating ferociously on Tory policies and their inadequacies. Again. All at the tender age of 14.
Maybe it's just me but I don't want to grow up or be slotted into either of these two categories. Why not have a bit of both.
To be honest this rant is spurred off from the fact my parents tried to make me give away my old videos. I refused obviously. What's wrong with holding onto the past if it's something that makes you who you are in the present. Even if it is a Scooby Doo video.
Ms.Loco xoxo
Every child is born an artist, the problem is to remain one once they grow up - Pablo Picasso
Thursday, 22 September 2011
9:55 pmGuess who?
100TH POST
Woo! I made it! Granted I haven't blogged since March but oh wellsies :) Noticed I've got some Malaysian
So what's happening? Well, life really. My age is finally catching up with me. School shit and all. GCSE's are done, haven't yet got the results so I'm hoping its A's and A*'s. Please. Please God. But now there's all the talk of University.
Seriously how many more exams and how much more stress do I have to go through till it's all over! Sigh. There's also the stress of having to buy suits for sixth form, oh joy upon a multitude of joys. And the school gave me A-level homework. I refuse to do it. I'm supposed to be on fucking summer holiday! FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU------
The "summer" holiday (there has been no sun) has been good in certain ways though. I have finally managed to start learning hiragana but it's so hard to learn a language on your own. I have a social life and have met up with people that I haven't seen since, well, last summer holiday. I sleep in all the time I missed my lie-ins. I went to Dublin with Dot Com and I ate so much. Seriously my face has never been so chubbs...*side thought: I'm at the age where I actually have to think about what I'm eating and the quantity of it. Sigh.
But now it's coming to an end.
FML
Ms.Loco xoxo
Labels: exams, holiday, homework, life, pictures, university
Monday, 22 August 2011
1:05 amAll We Know Is Falling
My 99th Post! I was going to do 99 things about me but it took forever and really wasn't that interesting in the end. Soooooo here's a story. I'm not sure if I have already posted it but here it is again! Enjoy.
In this city of stars we fall. We live in a world of hatred and internal combustion. Spiralling out of control we can only stop ourselves from becoming who we are. What we will become can be determined by so many possibilities that never include our own intentions. And so the world dictates our lives and de-moralises our natural behaviour on a day-to-day basis.
In a world where nothing and everything is possible simply on a judgemental basis we find ourselves bewildered and confused at the prospects of nothing and everything. And as we take pride on the most meaningless and spiteful and glorify and weak and pitiful one begins to wonder how we became so content in the shallowness of our souls. A plethora of questions occupy the vast waste of our minds and we ponder upon questions that perhaps, maybe, possibly, we might find ourselves to be intellectual.
Our security no doubt can be quantified using a measure of absurdity and wit in which we find safety and assurance. Our levels of truth can never truly rectify what has been done or undone and then done again.
Maybe I find a coherent structure in the above sentences just as I will find a sense of configuration in our world. But alas the prose spewing from my inexperienced flesh has not even yet comprehend what thoughts and questions I must embark upon before myself thinking about and questioning my surroundings. Profound meanings those before me have discovered reiterated and cemented in society I find can be easily undone. Easily questioned and answered. It's not about the use of logic. It never has been about logic. It never will be about logic. It is beyond ones already confirmed mind set. It is greater than anything anyone has yet to understand. And the sad thing is that everything I know and have accepted is being torn apart by the reality of something no human can never truly understand.
Those so self assured are the real fools who are so blindly open to interpretations of themselves and their own fantastical world they can never see past their own self explained indifference to anything other than their norm. Those outside the norm are outcasts and not acceptable to their hum drum world. The outcasts, or are they truly, are silent. Silent witnesses to the fools who believe that. This Is It. This is the world that we live in. That we will eventually destroy. That there is nothing we can do. That This is the way things are and forever will remain.
Some may choose to be accepted into the rank of the fool as they cannot handle the reality and beg and plead to be blissfully unaware. Gliding destructively and gazing menacingly at the hurt and fear in other eyes. The ones you have damaged will be the ones who will reap the long lasting peace. But you my blissfully unaware friend will tear at your face and holler decibels into the unforgiving sky WHY WHY DIDN'T I SEE THIS BEFORE. And it will be your own fault as you descend deeper into madness of the painful kind. And your eyes bore deeper into your skull just as the sun burns brighter in the unforgiving sky.
In a world where nothing and everything is possible simply on a judgemental basis we find ourselves bewildered and confused at the prospects of nothing and everything. And as we take pride on the most meaningless and spiteful and glorify and weak and pitiful one begins to wonder how we became so content in the shallowness of our souls. A plethora of questions occupy the vast waste of our minds and we ponder upon questions that perhaps, maybe, possibly, we might find ourselves to be intellectual.
Our security no doubt can be quantified using a measure of absurdity and wit in which we find safety and assurance. Our levels of truth can never truly rectify what has been done or undone and then done again.
Maybe I find a coherent structure in the above sentences just as I will find a sense of configuration in our world. But alas the prose spewing from my inexperienced flesh has not even yet comprehend what thoughts and questions I must embark upon before myself thinking about and questioning my surroundings. Profound meanings those before me have discovered reiterated and cemented in society I find can be easily undone. Easily questioned and answered. It's not about the use of logic. It never has been about logic. It never will be about logic. It is beyond ones already confirmed mind set. It is greater than anything anyone has yet to understand. And the sad thing is that everything I know and have accepted is being torn apart by the reality of something no human can never truly understand.
Those so self assured are the real fools who are so blindly open to interpretations of themselves and their own fantastical world they can never see past their own self explained indifference to anything other than their norm. Those outside the norm are outcasts and not acceptable to their hum drum world. The outcasts, or are they truly, are silent. Silent witnesses to the fools who believe that. This Is It. This is the world that we live in. That we will eventually destroy. That there is nothing we can do. That This is the way things are and forever will remain.
Some may choose to be accepted into the rank of the fool as they cannot handle the reality and beg and plead to be blissfully unaware. Gliding destructively and gazing menacingly at the hurt and fear in other eyes. The ones you have damaged will be the ones who will reap the long lasting peace. But you my blissfully unaware friend will tear at your face and holler decibels into the unforgiving sky WHY WHY DIDN'T I SEE THIS BEFORE. And it will be your own fault as you descend deeper into madness of the painful kind. And your eyes bore deeper into your skull just as the sun burns brighter in the unforgiving sky.
Ms.Loco xoxo
Saturday, 12 March 2011
11:00 pmSailor Senshi
Which Sailor Moon character are you?
Sailor Moon
[] You’re a Cancer.
[] You’re really quite short for your age (under 4’11” to 5’1”).
[x] You are a hyperactive person.
[x] Your weakness is cute boys/girls & junk food.
[x] You’re very emotional & always seem to be crying over something.
[x] You have a black cat.
[x] You hate school, & your least favorite subject is math.
[x] You always seem to be late.
[x] You may be kind & loving, but you are very jealous.
[x] You try to do good.
Total: 8
Sailor Chibi Moon
[] You’re the youngest of your group of friends.
[] You have/had pink (in your) hair.
[] Your hobbies are painting/drawing.
[x] You have a total sweet tooth.
[] Your favorite colors would be red & pink.
[] You’re typically childish & stubborn.
[x] But you can be selfless, kind, trusting, & wise beyond your years.
[x] You make friends very easily.
[x] Your mother is very childish/not mother-like.
[] You wish you were from the future.
Total: 4
Sailor Mercury
[] You love school & are quite good at it/You have no least favorite subject.
[x] You are always stressed out.
[x] You love the color aquamarine.
[] You’re sign is a Virgo.
[] You have/had blue (in your) hair.
[] You are quite shy, & find it hard to make friends.
[x] You are always very kind & helpful towards everyone.
[] Your favorite sport is swimming.
[] Your mom is always working.
[] You want to be a doctor/nurse when you’re older.
Total: 2
Sailor Mars
[] You have a bad temper.
[x] You hate learning about more modern history (within the last 100 years).
[x] Your dream job is to be a singer or model.
[] You have dated someone your friend had a crush on.
[x] You have a friend you’re always fighting with.
[x] You can run in high heels.
[] Your favorite color is red & black.
[x] You love fortune-telling.
[] You used to be a complete loner, but now you are popular.
[] Your sign is an Aries.
Total: 5
Sailor Jupiter
[] You hate airplanes.
[x] You’re a tomboy, but have a girly side.
[] You’ve always been taking care of yourself & are independent.
[] You’re very strong-willed.
[] You’re a troublemaker, or so people think.
[x] You’re one of the tallest of your group of friends.
[] Your sign is a Sagittarius.
[] You have an ex who you’re always thinking about since everything reminds you of
them.
[x] You have dated a lot of people.
[] You love cooking more than anything.
Total: 3
Sailor Venus
[] You have a white cat.
[] Your favorite foods are Japanese foods.
[] Your favorite colors are red & yellow.
[x] You love to exercise.
[] You are very cheerful person.
[] You love singing & want to be a singer when you’re older.
[x] You’re good at almost any sport.
[x] You’re an only child.
[x] Your sign is a Libra.
[ ] You would fake your own death.
Total: 4
Sailor Uranus
[] You have short hair, enough to be mistake for a boy.
[] You love watching cars race or you race cars.
[] Your sign is an Aquarius.
[x] You’re into the same sex as yourself.
[] You’re easily annoyed by people.
[] You have a very dry sense of humor.
[x] You enjoy running (track or cross country).
[x] You have a girlfriend (or if you’re a boy, boyfriend).
[x] You love to confuse people.
[] You’re a huge flirt.
Total: 4
Sailor Neptune
[] You’re average height for your gender.
[] You’re very elegant & lady-like.
[x] You are into the same sex as yourself.
[] You have a girlfriend (or if boy, boyfriend) that you just pretend is a good
friend.
[x] You are very selfless.
[] You’re a Pisces.
[x] Your least favorite food is mushrooms.
[x] You love music more than anything.
[] You have/had green (in your) hair.
[x] You can play an instrument of some sort.
Total: 4
Sailor Pluto
[] You’re a Scorpio.
[] You want to be a fashion designer when you’re older.
[] Your favorite color is dark red.
[] You drink green tea.
[] You are not the best at playing music.
[x] You are quite blunt with your statements.
[] You enjoy sewing & cooking.
[x] You would be considered a loyal friend.
[] If you could have one superpower, it’d be to tell the future.
[] The bug you hate the most are cockroaches.
Total: 2
Sailor Saturn
[] You are by far the shortest of your group of friends.
[] Milk disgusts you.
[x] You enjoy reading more than anything.
[] You hate working out because you’re considered weak.
[x] You’re an only child.
[x] You have very few friends.
[] You’re a Capricorn.
[] You’re a very shy person.
[] You live with your father.
[x] You care for others & appreciates sincere friendships.
Total: 4
Deffo Sailor Moon then :)
Labels: sailor moon
Friday, 28 January 2011
7:43 pmChange change change
New layout. Navigation is the Run Away With Me :)
I like this it's cute.
I liked the other one don't get me wrong but I'm really fickle and everytime I log on here I want to change the layout. It depends what mood I am in also.
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| Replace "Sid" with "school" |
I really want to start this project I've been thinking about for ages and I will after exams. I love taking pictures
I have a big post lined up and will complete it in due course :) No more of these random small ones.
Ms.Loco xoxo
Tuesday, 4 January 2011
12:52 amBlame Game
Another resolution I should have made; blog more frequently...and go on facebook less. I really have an addiction!
Let's play the blame game, I love you, more
Let's play the blame game for sure.
Let's call her names, names, I hate you, more.
Let's call her names, names, for sure.
I'll call you bitch for sure
As a last resort, and my first resort
You call me motherf-cker for long,
At the end of it you know we both were wrong.
Ms.Loco xoxo
Labels: love, relationship, sydney
Monday, 3 January 2011
9:25 pmThey say girls become pretty
When they're in love
Is it really so?
I hope it's true
You can be shy
You can be bashful
But when you're in love
Your eyes sparkle
Eyes meet and ignite the fire
That's when love begins
Glancing at each other
That's when the beam flashes
Ma-me-mi-mu-me-mo
Magical beam
This song and video is so ridiculous but I love it and respect her because she was in Kamikaze Girls.
Ms.Loco xoxo
Tuesday, 28 December 2010
7:01 pmProfile
Well hey there trollers.
I haven't blogged since March but I'll give it my best shot to blog more regularly fingers crossed. Anyhoo you should know me by now ! The one and only Ms.Loco !
But if you don't here's a quick summary. Brown hair, eyes and skin. Crazy, sporty, flirty, dancey me. Et voila c'est tout :). Au revoir mes amis bisous! xoxo
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