RANDOM COLOUR EXPLOSION!
watch your step if you dare risk getting closer to me.Keeping up appearances
When speaking to people of a different generation/status/someone we barely know we sometimes put on a facade to make us out to be someone else. Sometimes it's to give an illusion for something. For example:
The inspectors came to our school and all the teachers were going mad, and being organised for once in their lives, actually caring about what is going to happen in a lesson. Me? I don't care. Thus proves an occurence in which the inspectors were directly a floor below and I just happened to be having a jumping contest. Pretty much self explanitoray. Back to the point I was making. Also during their visit I passed by when they were talking to a few fellow students, asking them about school life, subjects and other school related stuff. I don't know why I thought it was strange, in fact I know that if I was in their position I would do the same. It was the voice. The voice they used. It was just so fake. You know, the professional voice, spinning lies about how you are interested in say, RE because it's interesting to learn about other cultures and religions. Or geography becuase it's interesting to learn how our world is shaped and how the world will eventually develop. Or history becuase it's interesting to know what happened in the past and how it could affect our lives today. Interesting, huh?
Bullshit
I know for a fact that 75% of people who take RE do not revise for tests, give their homework in at least three weeks late and only took Judaism as a second religion because it's easy and almost the same as Christianity. I also know that history just means "what's past is past and hopefully it won't happen again." And geography? Well that's just as boring as fuck. What I would like to say is:
I go to school, to get the grades, to go to uni, to get a good job, that pays the bills, and let's me buy the stuff I want
That's it
No bullshit
But no. You have to give some fake impression like you actually care. If something interests me genuinelly then that's a bonus but so far...meh.
Example number two:
When you are talking to someone on the phone, from a phone company, card company, or something professional.
Hello this is T-mob how can I help you?
Hi, I've been waiting for four hours to ask a really insignificant question I hope this wastes your time as much as it did mine.
...
Your welcome.
I wish I could say that. But you have to be all polite and nice and most of the time the response they give isn't helpful at all. I have quite a lot of patience but my mother...well let's just say she loses it.
Example three:
Meeting someone for the first time.
Maybe it's a friendof a friend. Maybe a random stranger. All the same it's always the pleasantries awkwardness, fake smiles, conversations and ice breaker or two, just keeping it nice. All this time I just want to leave, just go somewhere, just swear in their face. Be really...me...random. When I go to school I'm one person, when I go athletics I'm another. At home I'm miserable teenager.
This whole thing begs the question when I am around others in general being a different person, when I'm with the people I trust, can I take away all the fake outer skin, and just relax and be me?
You think you know yourself but when you catch yourself treating someone a bit differently to give yourself a different impression towards that person, do you do that with everyone.
Who the fuck am I?
I'm Miss Random in school
I'm Queen Bitch with my boyfriend (as much he likes to tell me I'm not, we all know it's true)
I'm Gangsta Loco at athletics
I'm Miserable Ungrateful Teen at home
I have come to a conclusion...
I'm a schitzofrenic :P
Ms....who am I?
Labels: fake, lies, people, personality
Sunday, 7 March 2010
9:59 pmProfile
Well hey there trollers.
I haven't blogged since March but I'll give it my best shot to blog more regularly fingers crossed. Anyhoo you should know me by now ! The one and only Ms.Loco !
But if you don't here's a quick summary. Brown hair, eyes and skin. Crazy, sporty, flirty, dancey me. Et voila c'est tout :). Au revoir mes amis bisous! xoxo
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