RANDOM COLOUR EXPLOSION!
watch your step if you dare risk getting closer to me.Oh simple joys
I remember when I was younger when my parents went to Homebase they left me in the paint section. All I remember was standing there for about an hour admiring all these different coloured paints. It wasn't even a big shelf and it only had two rows of paints. We used to go a lot to Homebase when we were doing up the house and Homebase didn't change the paints often so I would often just stare at the same paint week in week out. I know it's strange...I mean it's just paint. But it's just little feelings I miss like that. Being able to admire something so simple, like paint.
I miss the feeling of birthdays and Christmas. When I would go to bed the night before my birthday or Christmas I couldn't sleep because I was so excited. I couldn't wait to see what my parents had bought me or the gifts Santa had brought. I also loved that I was becoming one year older. To me, back then, it was great. I'm growing up! But as I've grown up these special feelings left me. I can't remember exactly when the feeling left but I do remember the feeling of excitement weakening then disappearing altogether. I miss it. Loss is the only feeling I've retained since the excitement left.
What's worse is I had to find out Father Christmas wasn't real from my cousin who explained to me using evidence she had found out. I tried believing after she told me but it wasn't the same. You can't change what you know to be true. Like Panic At The Disco's split.
When I see young girls (as in 10 year olds) in high heels and orange make up it kind of makes me sad. They want to grow up so quickly, whereas I want the reverse. I don't want material joys. I want inner joys. You get bored of material items quickly but the feeling when you wake up on your birthday...I want it back. I've got to the point where I didn't even want a party and October 21st just felt like another date in the calender and December 25th was just another day for companies to make money. I know it's probably too late to change things so I'll just continue being on holiday. A holiday that just feels like time wasting away.
Happy Summer Holidays everybody
Ms.Loco xoxo
Labels: depressing, holiday, paint, young
Thursday, 16 July 2009
2:10 pmProfile
Well hey there trollers.
I haven't blogged since March but I'll give it my best shot to blog more regularly fingers crossed. Anyhoo you should know me by now ! The one and only Ms.Loco !
But if you don't here's a quick summary. Brown hair, eyes and skin. Crazy, sporty, flirty, dancey me. Et voila c'est tout :). Au revoir mes amis bisous! xoxo
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